I’d scheduled arthroscopic surgery to repair the medial meniscus on my right knee. Within twenty-four hours I began to doubt my decision. What’s going on? I wondered. Was this pre-surgery jitters? Was God telling me to not have surgery?
The prompting to cancel the surgery didn’t make sense to me.
As I prayed, Deuteronomy 29:29 came to mind. “The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may follow all the words of this law” (NIV). God had shown me what I needed to do. The reason why was one of His secrets.The secret things belong to the Lord our God (Deut: 29:29) #wisdom Click To Tweet
I felt confused, but I realized that recognizing His leading was more important than understanding why. God knows the future. He sees the whole picture. Good decisions don’t depend on my understanding. They come from trusting His wisdom.
Feeling awkward, I called my surgeon and told him I needed to cancel the surgery. Thankfully, he is a Christ-follower and didn’t argue with me. But I still wondered why God had me cancel when my knee still hurt.
Months later my physical therapist said a new study showed that people with diminished cartilage were more likely to need knee replacements following the type of surgery I’d canceled. My X-ray had shown eroded knee cartilage.
I continued to exercise and drink my green smoothies. My knee got better. Then I tore the cartilage on the other side of the knee. This time new X-rays brought good news. The main cartilage had begun to grow back! That made me a better candidate for lateral meniscus surgery.
What amazed me most is my surgeon found no sign of my previous injury when he examined inside my knee during surgery!
There’s a lot I don’t understand about God’s ways. But I know He’s always good and wise. He is beyond understanding and worthy of my trust. My experience reminded me that good decisions and peace of mind don’t come from understanding why, but from knowing Who leads me.
How do you recognize God’s leading?
Debbie W. Wilson
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