I’ve put conditions on receiving the peace of God. Before I would accept God’s peace I wanted to see His provision. I inadvertently placed my hope in knowing an answer instead of in trusting a Person.
In other words, I resisted living my faith.
This pattern began in college. At Christmas break of my senior year a sense of panic rose in me when I realized I didn’t know what to do after I graduated. I thought when I know the answer then I’ll have peace.
That February the Lord took hold of me and redirected my life. I knew without a doubt I was to join an international Christian ministry, Campus Crusade for Christ (Cru).
Having clarity dissolved my anxiety—for a while. Then a new worry popped up. Was I supposed to get married? If so, how would I find and recognize the right person?